I realized today that I come here only when I have something to say...or may be as a reminder...to read when life is too busy...or too full..or may be too empty...
I have not written about the last two years of my life...and I should...because they have made me what I am today...I am not sure why I was so keen on doing an MBA from FMS...this was a nagging passion for many years...forgotten for many and reminded in 2016...a random application and I am now an MBA..I think I hoped that the degree would make me better...a better professional, a bigger pay package...and big boost to my self esteem...it did all that...but it helped me grow...as a person...
Doing academics at 34 is not the best thing for most of us...it shows we have nothing better to do in life...the responsibilities are either less or overpowering...seeing the class of 200, reaffirmed the belief that I am not alone...and many have come with something they want...which is not the degree only...
FMS gave me wings...it has given me excellent friends...some thought provoking moments...lots of happiness, very less tears and a lifetime of memories...it came at the right time, with right people...and may be it was god's way of helping me find myself...in some way...
it also gave me a new family...I seldom leave my people and that is an issue with me...too many people, too many expectations...too many heartbreaks..but many more shoulders to wipe your tears too..I have always been surrounded with people and I value this connect...though I should someday pick and choose! till that day....
today was a sad day...yday was even worse...to lose people who are not on your speed dial is really not hard hitting...but somehow it was...One of my classmate, Sanjay passed away yday...no notices...no warning...just a whatsapp to say he is gone...i have saved almost 80% of my FMS gang numbers...i checked...I havent saved his...two years, did I speak to him? I remember few fleeting moments when I spoke to him, gave him eateries, rushed with him to enter class late...can i recollect his voice...I can't...and then it struck me...he was just another person till now...and today his going rekindled the emotions of someone who you knew...someone I saw for two years...smiling...sitting non descriptively...and he is gone...no goodbyes...a good bye would not be ok anyway...but yes may be a reminder...or just a thought...
i remember people saying he was dancing in the last party...he was never doing that...but he did...and it stayed on...as his last memory...you will be missed Sanjay - you were there...for some...and for some, your memories stay on... ! stay smiling wherever you are now!
