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There are days when you want to just sit and relax...with a cup of hot/cold coffee in hand...a book...a friend...not to forget a dog...even if not cute...will work :) smtimes...just smtimes...u need that one moment of being relaxed...of being no one but urself wit your favorite things/people...when relations do not matter...and when life looks beautiful...inspite all the hardships...

been too long since I have loved my life...or enjoyed that one moment with myself...or just done things which i always wanted to do...adopt a dog for instance. : ) each passin dog reminds me of a dog which i always wished..but cud not have...or a book which i always dreamt/desired to read bt cud not..or times which I shud/cud have broken free and didnt....and there are times which tell me that i m no good! hurted friends when i shud not have...talked abt things which cud have been avoided...reacted to instances when there was no need..or just been plain stupid!

i dont know what is confusing me now...is it the love that surrounds me...unconditional...or the people who push me into the comfort zone...by thinking abt me when i cud do that myself....why does the mind not think like the heart? and why does one just not accept love...as love...with no strings attached! why!

expectations!

i am not sure how much one should expect...or not expect from people around...there has been so much that happened in past few hours that I had to pen this down...coz I am hurt..and angry...and relieved! I dont like when people start taking me for granted or try show attitude when there is no need...with friends your expectation is that they will understand...and if they cant...you try and make them understand...no egos play any role when 2 friends are at a dual...infact no third person can either mend it...nor can spoil it...it is the connect one has with a friend that matters...
had wanted to go and spend some time of solace...but the desire was not that strong to go alone...have been out alone for last few trips and wanted P to come along for this one...she needed the break much more than i did...and i knew that this is one way i cud ensure that...but someone up there did not think the way I thought :) well..he has the right and the power to derail anything!....and yes he did exactly that...but then shweta wanted to go...and looks like she wud...all alone...she is not pickin my call...nor is she talkin to me...she is not willin to listen...and that is not acceptable...a friend usually does...or not?

for me i value friendship in all forms and shapes...dont like upsettin one to make the other happy..and certainly dont want to unnecessarily create issues when there are none...but i need an understanding soul...the friend who is always around irrespective of you having the time to look around..and shweta certainly is that...it is jst one of those days when she is pissed off...and rightly so! i m sure she will talk...and soon :)

Got Ladoo Gopal at home...dont knw why n when it happened...dont know if there was a need...but yes...looks like he was eyein to be at home with us...and i m sure it will spread all good moments of peace and mischieF! and hopefully keep blessing me :)

unclutter the sky...and minds!

it has not yet rained yet...and may be it is not goin to...would habe liked the rains to cm...to wash away the tiredness...the fatigue...the stagnation that has set in...life was never that laid back..nor was it without direction...or life ! days nowadays just pass...without giving me any news...or reasons..or excuses! may be im in a content state...or may b i m just ignorant....and not asking for life to push me harder...why do we always want to complicate our happy state? i keep telllin everyone not to over complicate and just lead the life you are currently leading...then why I am myself not followin the same route?
have been working...but not working too hard..living...not living too hard...exercising...but not exercisin too hard...huh! is that really how one shud be...!