Tuesday, May 11, 2010
sweets!
was craving for sweets for a long time...may be the craving was to do something sinful..something that is not allowed! something that will make me happy...and yes i m happy now!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
journey!
life is a journey...and each day is one milestone...woke up again mid night and was wide awake for sm time before sleep came back...been doing this for some time now...may be a break is what i need and will get...from what i don't know though!
will be travelling today...feels good...have been static for some time and may be a push might help...the stress...the sweat...the bumps...the strange rooms...i think i will like it...but again one nowadays should not say much...who knows...!
M has been again not in the right mood...exhaustion i hope is the only reason...she approved all that i did...and i have my doubts on these...seldom does she not comment and it is worryin..but again a passing phase...she will be ok soon...
want to work hard today...like doing that...want to tie up the loose ends and move on...lets see what the day entails!
will be travelling today...feels good...have been static for some time and may be a push might help...the stress...the sweat...the bumps...the strange rooms...i think i will like it...but again one nowadays should not say much...who knows...!
M has been again not in the right mood...exhaustion i hope is the only reason...she approved all that i did...and i have my doubts on these...seldom does she not comment and it is worryin..but again a passing phase...she will be ok soon...
want to work hard today...like doing that...want to tie up the loose ends and move on...lets see what the day entails!
Saturday, May 1, 2010
empty day!
woke up with a lump in my throat...literally though! realized that my random eating and drinking habit is taking a toll on me...after a very long time though...the pain was bad...wanted to have some medicine but could not find any...lights went out early morning...and then it was a day worth nothing! had decided to go to office but no avail...things just don't matter nowadays and it was not a good feeling..felt bad on not doing what was in my hand...disappointed!
it rained in the evening..felt good...not great...wanted it to go on...but it didn't...like it was telling me that this is what you can get...no more! may be it will rain during the night too...again hide and seek!
happiness and sadness....two sides of life...do both come together too? what is the decision you take if you have both staring at you? the pain is not a great friend to have...but sometimes pain can lead to a wish for smiles again...and that is what i desire now...some hope...some sunshine...some smiles!
it rained in the evening..felt good...not great...wanted it to go on...but it didn't...like it was telling me that this is what you can get...no more! may be it will rain during the night too...again hide and seek!
happiness and sadness....two sides of life...do both come together too? what is the decision you take if you have both staring at you? the pain is not a great friend to have...but sometimes pain can lead to a wish for smiles again...and that is what i desire now...some hope...some sunshine...some smiles!
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