the fog!

It is such a dense fog today...did not feel like comin to office...just wanted to sit back with a cup of coffee and a nice book...a romantic feel good novel with lots of mush~ a quilt and solitude...do not want the world next to me...or anyone special too...just me and my book...will not mind a cute big/small dog around though...close to me...to cuddle :)

it is not a day to be in office...or to be anywhere public :( but...not everything you desire happen...

first week ended already!

it is still so cold that i wish i cud just sleep in my quilt for months! the chilling wind along with the fog can make a lot of us romantic...but a majority of us wud still be the boring people we are and be inside...doing nothin but eatin and thinkin...of sleeping and then waking up again...to sleep again!!! the week ended...and so has the first weekend ended...and the chill still continues...!

have been getting up at strange times...not sure if it is change of bed, position or just changin times :) dont like getting disturbed sleep but there is hardly anything i can do to not stop me from wakin up...got up at 530 am today...dreamt of something...or someone...cant remember...but when i woke up i had no memories...and no sleep! waking up like this is not exactly my idea of weekend n i hope the days ahead are much better...

the chill is also pushin all of us inside quilts a lot more than we shud...lazy bums we all r becoming...and it is the season i guess to just laze around...till we are again pushed into working hard :) so till the time it is not getting tough...i refuse to get tougher :) and just relax...in the warmth of the bed...alas alone ;-)!!
thinking of the bed again...and time to check if someone has reached back...to warmth and laziness :)

second day...first thoughts!

i m not happy...and this is not the way I should/would have started the new year...the chill outside is also troublin me...and there is no way i would let it hurt...that much...forgiveness as a tool is seldom executed...and it is often taken as the given thing...but i m not sure if some people do understand the meaning of forgiveness or of lettin it go...also...does it help to seek forgiveness when u have done nothin wrong...may be yes...or may be not...actually just smtimes u dont have a role to play...the ball is not in ur court...and u can just think and wonder...on what happened and why! i am in one of those flux moments where i want to give someone a cold shoulder and tell her that it doesnt help...but i cant...nor i will...and i m not sure if this chill will continue to dampen my spirits in the weeks ahead...coz i really dont want that to happen...and if it does...well...i know my options...

the year ahead...that is wat i need to concentrate on...i wil need to outgrow my feelings and head...to ensure my happiness...and respect....