the wait continues...

The world still is not a safe place to be in. Didn't realise the value of having a home, money to spend and being employed at an office that really will not force. The lockdown or the unlock for us has been the same. We still do not go out, order online and stay in. It's been months. We stepped out 17 March last to a shop.. Inside a shop.. Few days back we did a drive to kadimi and back.. With a mask, windows open and a fear that we get back safely. Very very sad times.. Times that make u wish how precious things and people are.. Days when u wake up with a fear and sleep with a wish.. Each day goes.. And there is no hope in sight.. Just the hope and prayers tbart this too shall pass. For now the end seems too far.. The beginning was dangerous.. We are hopefully midway through.. But each day.. Becomes a blessing.. To say a thank u to God, for keeping us ok.. For making us count our blessings. For hoping some power will end this like it began.. The wish.. The prayer.. The hope! 

lockdown does not end!

Not sure if I did get around talking about the worst phase of life that teh world has even seen. The corona virus has changed us in so many ways ans it still is no where going.. Stuck at home for last two months pluse since March 17 makes me think will things be normal anytime.. No hugs no meeting people.. No eating outside..Chained to four walls of the house.. Fighting mentally physically and in relationships too.. The virus has pushed us in ways that we never thought. The sad reality of have and have nots, the poor and rich.. The old and young.. Everyone scared.. Everyone scarred.. All hope and pray things get better.. The fear is palpable.. The hope still there.. But it's marred with knowing as a country we will not be able to manage the numbers when the worst comes.. We already failed the people on roads.. The ones who need daily ration.. I hope we don't fail us.. Time for our country and policy makers to think abt the bottom line and help them grow. Spend on medical and infra ka most needed.. Not temples not statues.. Nor on fancy stuff.. Let's get our basics right.. And hope things become normal.. For now  mask, sanitizer and prayers! 

RIP Rishi sir!

Days like these are random.. Depressing and hard to conquer.. Getting over the loss of a good soul like Irfan was tough.. But at least there was a glimmer of hope. That he is at peace.. The pain is gone.. Today brought another news.. Rishi kapoor going is surprising. Someone who had recovered.. Surrendered. The news depresses... Because it reminds the nature and it's power. And the uncertainty of everything. And the equality.. Of having money, power and the ones that don't have luxuries.. How nature equalizes.. How powerless we can become... 

Praying for peace, health and certainty! 

RIP Irfan!

For someone  like me who likes almost all sorts of acting, there is hardly a difference between a good and a great actor. But irfan truly was a phenomenal one.. And the fact his eyes did most of the talking.. Made him even more special. To fight a battle, having the courage yo keep going on and then surrender when you have done your bit, he did all. He was a delight to watch and as an actor I think that's how you would like to be defined.. Someone who is not acknowledged only by the classes or the critics but by people like us who remember him in his films and love him for it. 

A life gone too soon.. But hope he is at peace.. Liked the message - rest in power! 

 

Lockdown! 2020

Looks like I need to get back to active writing again...the reason...well lack of people who i can connect emotionally...to chat...to bounce off ideas...to seek resolutions and to just be...


so what is new for me and the world...lockdown...a month already of being inside...like a big boss house...rationing stuff, hoping things get better...wishing the madness goes off..and sane times arrive.


life so far has been good..we have the requirements of staying safe and alive...feeding what we can afford and more...unlike many who r struggling...god help them.


realised the futility of everything...the money, the relations...the power...one minute u can buy everything the next minute u r even scared to step out and meet your neighbors...the fear of being safe preceeds everything...and the fact i stay with parents, this was a real fear...not for us but for them to be safe.


also realised the need for having someone to talk to...to just assure you that things will get better...to love u..to say yes u r not alone. made some promises to myself...to try and change...to bring in more things that i kept postponing..to make it worthwhile till i can...


the lockdown continues...but there is a hope...that things will go back to normal...and when it does, time to say thank u to life and the people that make it...hopefully lessons learnt but not forgotten.


PS: made a random commitment to someone...3 years start now!