angry!

i m angry...i m confused and i am just lost...lost on time...lost on life and lost on what one shud do when one can! it is been such a drag lately that i think i need to be shaken...to be told in no sweet terms that i have failed...failed in my own eyes...failed to prove that i can do a good job...if i want to...but my problem is that i am not doin it...why is that i m gettin reminders..why am i being told when i know i have to...why is that i m not smilin at the end of any day...! questions for which i need to find ans...i cant sit back n say to hell with all...i need to get a grip on my life...and start doin what is right for me...and also...to start believin that i can do what i want to..and what people think i can!
i need to start living..and not existing! i need to be pushed...and i hope god gives me a good one...i hope!