i m not happy...and this is not the way I should/would have started the new year...the chill outside is also troublin me...and there is no way i would let it hurt...that much...forgiveness as a tool is seldom executed...and it is often taken as the given thing...but i m not sure if some people do understand the meaning of forgiveness or of lettin it go...also...does it help to seek forgiveness when u have done nothin wrong...may be yes...or may be not...actually just smtimes u dont have a role to play...the ball is not in ur court...and u can just think and wonder...on what happened and why! i am in one of those flux moments where i want to give someone a cold shoulder and tell her that it doesnt help...but i cant...nor i will...and i m not sure if this chill will continue to dampen my spirits in the weeks ahead...coz i really dont want that to happen...and if it does...well...i know my options...
the year ahead...that is wat i need to concentrate on...i wil need to outgrow my feelings and head...to ensure my happiness...and respect....
