so I am sitting at home today...doin nothing! It was an early morning...and now I am all sleepy...but cannot sleep since everyone else is sleepin or not at home...so decided to check on random mails and sites...and then write!
What am I writing today...well...i promised P that I will write about her...since she always keeps telling me that I am hopeless with promises...and seldom keep them...i decided to uphold this one!!! And frankly it is not that tough to write about her...since we anyway end up havng a disagreement on virtually anything we do/say/think/dream!
So...yes she wants to know what I know about her...or have managed to decipher about her...now that i think about it, i realise that i hardly know her :) or do i? she has been someone who has brought a lot of smiles in my life...some tears...beautiful moments...moments of despair...and total hopelessness...we are contrasts...and may be that is why we somehow attract! coming from a small town(!) she refuses to imbibe the smells of the hustle and bustle of the crowd...and I refuse to squeeze myself in her perfect-kodak-small-city-life! May be it is her closed-to-heart-beautiful memories that are etched so deeply...and do not allow for any new memories to stake claim...or may be she is a denial mode...since this is her only connection to the past...her new changed self needs that one reference point to go back to...to remind her of what she was...once! but then again...these are my assumptions P! Feel free to disagree like always!
The one discussion we will always end up having is her priorities and how one should look at it...frankly it is your priorities and no one but you have a right to comment on it...but...smwhere i feel the need to question/analyze or reason out everything is not needed..is it? life anyway is not giving us all ans and to top it with more questions sounds unreasonable and uncalled for...she like me has made her life complex...and wants me to change :) not realising that she needs some overhaulin too!
May be times will change her again...and may be it will change my perception as well...for now i m sure that she is still not a revelation to me...but then i hardly care...since she is a dear friend...and with friends...u dont have to know it all! but yes...P ...let me tell you...when you have ur kid/s...I am going to ensure that they do not reason out life! they smile more often and work harder :P
that's it for now...rushing out...to sleep what else :)
